What is this life all about? What is my purpose? What am I doing here? Is there meaning to me being here or is it all simply a co incidence?
These questions are my constant companions. Sometimes its an enjoyable experience pondering on these questions while other times its a totally frustrating and even heartbreaking experience.
Having been blessed in life with a certain financial success, I figured inner joy and contentment would be one of the rewards from the fruits of the hard labour that got me to this point..
To date, this is the greatest illusion I have been living with. Money does not automatically bring inner contentment.
Please do yourself a great favour, if like me you were under the illusion that all you needed to do was sort out finanical security and the rest would fall into place.. I beg you , wash this from your memories, its simply not true, it is not the case.
The same issues of what to do with your life/ what brings you lasting joy and contentment will remain no matter how large your bank balance.
True, financial freedom gives you a little breathing space. Instead of running about working like a crazy woman with no time to ponder life questions, it gives you the time ask the deeper more difficult questions i mentioned at the beginning of this post.. and the time to listen to the …nothingness, to realise perhaps like me, that you have no clue of these very significant answers, that they illude you completely.
I have been on this journey for a couple of years. To begin with, when I sold the business and stopped working, I decided to travel again. Afterall it had been my love and my primary passion for most of my life. I thought that now I could now travel as long as I wanted without needing to stop and work to top up my funds I would be eternally joyous.
The realisation that dissatisfaction had crept into my reality was quite a shocking one. So is this it? Is this all my life amounts to? Travelling about the globe? Is there there not more to me, is there not a greater purpose for me being here? Is there not someting significant I meant to be doing with my life? And if the answer is YES to this question.. then what is it? how do i find it? how will I know it?
To help find these answers, my partner and I decided to try and stop in one place and create a life for ourselves.. and this is where i am at in the present moment.
I have sat with these questions for sometime now and still they remain unanswered. I decided to write a list of the ‘things’ that I wanted to have in my life, things I wanted to try, to experience and to learn and begun to structure them into my life. Perhaps my answers would come this way.
This structure seems to be bringing a certain sense of satisfaction. I know the comfort I am feeling is still not exactly what its all about. But it is a start. A great start!
Hence my reason for sharing this wth you. If for any reason you or someone you know have also been feeling this sense of dissatisfaction in your life, maybe my list will inspire you to make a list, or maybe you can just try some of the things I have been doing and see if they work for you.
It takes work and effort to be joyous, it takes discipline to put things in ones life that give it meaning and purpose. It takes will power to sit quietly to listen to the soul and hear its messages of your purpose in this life time.
I wish you well. I would love some feedback, to hear your thoughts.
until next time
much love and light
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